Jodi_the_g
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Registered: 7th Aug 01
Location: Washington D.C
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As some of you know I had a awful couple of years with this year taking the biscuit, I was lucky enough to find someone who made me forget all the pain and self hatred I felt for the events of the past.
Yet although I had found this person who made me feel like no other, I still let the events of the past and other circumstances pull me down. I destroyed any love she once had for me and now all she feels is hatred towards me.
For the above I will regret my actions for the rest of my life as I believe that I have lost the most special person I was ever luckily enough to cross paths with.
Such may I will move on and meet someone else but the pain and suffering and problems I caused will be there for years.
Recently after a large stint in hospital I decide to turn the negatives of my past around, I have sort professional help for these issue and have now turned my life around with the help of kind people a couple from this very board, Shelly especially who have been a shoulder to cry on an vent my frustrations.
Fortunately I have now got my life back on track and am doing really well business wise and mentally as well,
I am now in a position where if I had meant this special person I know we would still be together and looking towards a happy future.
Yet due to my actions I will never have this chance again. Yet how can I give up on someone who I love with all my heart, I will attempt and not fail to right the wrongs I caused regardless of weather this results in her speaking to me, just because I am no longer the toxic person I became due to my illness, but myself again and have to make amines for my actions.
But all I want is a chance to show that I can and am the man she once feel in love again and never will I ever fall back into the habits and actions of the past. I know this is a dream but as impossible as it may seem I have got to fight for every dream because who's to know which one you let go would have made you complete and happy once more.
Thank you Shelly, Lisa, Karen, and Leni you have helped me more than your ever know by just listen. I don’t know how I can ever repay you all for your help in my darkest time but hopefully in the future I can.
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Craig W
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Merry Christmas
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Paul_J
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Icy
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quote: Originally posted by Paul_J
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Colin
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No point living in the past mate....move on and up
Remember - No surrender
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Joff
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Also remember - "have you seen this boy"
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Colin
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quote: Originally posted by Joff
Also remember - "have you seen this boy"
John Conner
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Karen
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Joff
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quote: Originally posted by Kolin
quote: Originally posted by Joff
Also remember - "have you seen this boy"
John Conner
Kolin wins a point.
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Sam
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Registered: 24th Dec 99
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Shit happens mate, but you learn from your mistakes and move on, and things get better!
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